28th June

I watched the saddest film today. A Walk to Remember, Its brilliant but so sad. I was sobbing for half of it, since she said I love you. I mean I know I normally cry in films but I was like properly crying loads :P I kinda remembered (from someone telling me ages ago) what was coming halfway through the which made it all the more sad. I love the line at the end he says "Our love is like the wind... I can’t see it, but I sure can feel it".

I feel pretty ill today, I was quite good for most of the weeks though which is good. My birthday is getting closer, 5 more days, my sister better order my stuff as soon as she gets back or they wont be here in time. I think she gets back tomorrow.

I've got another classic song too. I dare you to move-Switchfoot. It was on the a walk to remember soundtrack but I liked it ages ago. I also have a new song, well its new to me, Lafee-Zusammer I think its translated as together in English anyways a couple of her songs are quite good but thats my fave at the moment.

Anyway, Thats all :)

26th June

I've eaten waaaayyy too many sweets :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVCiCyJDsXU

one of my new videos :) Bill again.

I don't have a perfect smile

maybe I'm just too shy

I'm not a beauty queen

on covers of magazines

that's something you can't deny

I got my own style

So what you see is what you get

A girl of no regrets

I'm not ideal - I'm quite absurd

I'm just an imperfect girl

I rise above this perfect world

I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

I wouldn't be classed as cool

I have to bend the rules

Maybe I don't fit in

I didn't always win

that's something you can't deny

I'm happy with my own style

So what you see is what you get

A girl of no regrets

I'm not ideal - I'm quite absurd

I'm just an imperfect girl

I rise above this perfect world

I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

It's all just make-believe

The standards that we hear

It doesn't have to be

A perfect world, a perfect world

I'm not ideal - I'm quite absurd

I'm just an imperfect girl

I rise above this perfect world

I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

I'm not ideal - I'm quite absurd

I'm just an imperfect girl

I rise above this perfect world

I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

Thats a T.A.T.U song, I just thought the lyrics were good, Theres also this other song I like, but its German (by Lafee) so I cant translate it.

Todays been pretty dull, raining, school blahh.

Yesterday was soo embarrassing, I HAD WOTSIT LEGS!! Like the girl in Angus Thongs And Perfect snogging, bright orange lmfao. To make it worse I has 2 white flipflop lines too!! HAHA, I can laugh at myself so alls good.

I went to town today, its funny(not) how they never have your size in what you want. and in one shop your a size 8 and another your a size 10 and sometimes your both in the SAME shop but in different style trousers. Confusing.

I was reading More magazine, Its the best cause thy have all the high street shops and the 'men overheard' section is hilarious

Boyfriend:What are those holes in your face?

Girlfriend:Pores

Boyfriend:What, Like cats have?

Boyfriend:(lifting up his top) Do I have a cupcake?

Girlfriend:Er, Do you mean muffin top?

Girlfriend:Urgh, I hate lemon and lime fruit pastilles.

Boyfriend:I love them! Thats why we are such a great couple, we can share packets in harmony.

Girlfriend:Aw, you're so sweet.

Boyfriend:Yeah, But I'm no Fruit Pastille.

"This bread tastes like bread. I mean I know it is bread, but it really tastes like bread"

Lmao you got to love them :)

My Mum is sat next to me right now reading my report :S She doesnt look to impressed.

Its not very brilliant I mean I passed everything except business studies but I still got a D in that compared to alot of other people's E's and F's but I didnt get enough A's only 2 in English and Geography, I got too many C's. She says shes 'relieved' that I havent done worse cause of how much I've been off. My form report was bad as "my attendence is unsatisfactory" and my "punctuality is poor".

We are also not having study leave next year for our exams! how shitty is that.

Anyways I need to do some art.

24 June

My laptop is really pissing me off at the moment it keeps freezing up, but I dont suppose hitting it and swearing at it will help much lol.

The weather is really hot today, you'd think being the end on the year our lessons would be a bit more chill but no, instead we are starting all our coursework for year 11. I really need to write some of my welsh coursework, I have a test on it next thursday which is my birthday, bummer.

I made the Nick Jonas video for Hannah, she loved it. I got him to say, 'its Hannah' and 'wow,youre so pretty' which I though was pretty clever, and I'm just publishing my River Phoenix one now, its not brilliant but I'll live.

I had another fake tan disaster today only this time I was wearing a skirt so the whole school could notice it :) I tried spray this afternoon, but its only stated to develop and already looks pretty dark seeing as my skin is naturally VERY pale, ive got a white line where my flip flops are lmao.

I was told we are getting our reports tomorrow, so I'll try and go into reg, and apparently our headteacher (who is a horrible and strict) is supplying my first lesson so I'm gonna get into trouble, my skirts way to short and has grey on it but oh well, its better than roasting. I actually just managed to dodge him today, I saw him coming in my direction so decided to go around a hedge so eh couldnt see me, I saw him confiscate someone's jacket. Wednesday is actually one of the days I'm allowed to be late but I wouldnt want to explain as he might have taken that away from me and I like the extra half hour I have to sleep and get ready thanks.

My gosh I'm such a spaz, I was writing this now so that by the time I'd finished this my video would be published but I forgot to do the settings so its just started now.

I probably dont make any sense.

I finished watching The Princess Protection Program, It was quite bad, Demi cannot act AT ALL. Sorry but thats true and the storylines and scripting they choose is so cheesy.

Night :)

22nd June

I made another video Stand by Me again, its not brilliant but it'll do, I'm making a Nick Jonas one and a Zac Efron one for my friend Hannah.

I'm watching The Princess Protection Program at the moment, I dont have Disney channel so I have to watch it on youtube. Demi Lovato is SUCH a bad actress, but Selena kind of rescues it.

School was rather interesting today. At break this guy in my year started a little fight thing in the canteen today with his friend, it was really weird cause hes such a nice guy and never loses his temper, he looked quite angry when I saw him in the lesson after, apparently his girlfriend (the one i was talking to in welsh on Thursday) cheated on him at a party. But the funny story is with Sarah and Liam Bless them, apparently they went on a date on the weekend and he forgot to kiss her (their first kiss) and he texted her later saying 'I forgot to do something' and so today at lunch they met up and as they were saying goodbye he said to her 'this time I wont forget' and kissed her, so awkward and cheesy lmao me and my friends were laughing so much! Apparently he wasn't a good kisser either :P

CRAP! I forgot to watch 90210 AGAIN. I'll have to catch it on 4oD.

Well thats it I want to get further into this princess crap :)

21st June

Man Ive had a busy day today, I did sit down until 6pm!

I've tidied my room (It was an total mess, clothes piled high on the floor, books all over the floor and coffee table, makeup all over my desk, pens and wrappers all over my other desk..etc)so it is spotless, polished and vacuumed and even painted my walls cause they had marks on them. My room looks really big now theres so much space, its weird.

I did 5 loads of washing and drying, ironing too. and somehow I've managed to watch A Cinderella Story aswell, I love the song on it by Jimmy Eat World, Hear Me something? I cant remember the name, the chorus goes 'may angels lead you in'. It is the sweetest chick flick. I am also aiming to watch Another Cinderella Story if I have time but I have to finish my homework first. I have the weirdest DVD and music collection lmao, a bit of everything.

I replaced the song on my youtube video and made a new one, they are both Stand By Me ones and I also have a Bill Kaulitz video. I want to make a River Phoenix one with the Jimmy Eat World one but I'll need to get some new footage as I only have Stand By Me and tokio hotel stuff on there (hence the videos I made). I quite like making them, it might become my new hobby,

Anyways I'll post the links my youtube name thingy is Janeyyy94.

I really need to organise all the films that I've taped off TV, I might do that next weekend, also I've asked to go to Ikea, I asked to get a chest of draws, curtains and a new mirror for my bday. My mirror at the moment is plastic so its a bit weird, you stand at one end you look skinny, stand at the other you look fat, I dont know which one is real, my curtains at the moment are from years ago when my room was pink, they're patchwork with hears and watering cans on them, I want to put all the folded stuff from the top of my wardrobe and some of the stuff from my other wardrobe into the draws so I can put some of my books on top of the wardrobe and have room for my new DVDs on my shelf, the only problem is the draws will go where all my shoes are so I dont know where they'll go. Boring information about me but I'm just voicing my thoughts :D.

My Stand By Me videos:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G2zgLQudbWM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2woHKLMrAJE

19th June

MY EXAMS ARE OVER!!

Well, for this year anyways.

I still have my end of year tests though. Only 4 more weeks of school left and my birthdays in 2 weeks.

I finally uploaded my SuperBill video onto youtube, its processing now. I also made a lovely Stand By Me tribute, took me a few hours but I think its better than the Bill one as I've used alot more special effects and what not, dayumm the audio just got disabled! I spent ages trying to get the words to match the lips on the video, what a waste of time! Oh well at least the Bill one works + I have them on my computer and can put it on my ipod.

I'm going to go to sleep as I've still got a bit of a cough.

18th June

My gosh today has been weird. You know just that not normal feeling you get.

Anyway, I kept thinking it was Friday, I dont know why. Nobody was in school. Most people stayed home to revise, first lesson was art so I didnt notice much as its a small class, in science all three of our classes were combined, but that was good as it meant I had a physics sesh for my exam tomorrow morning, then people went home so it was just me and two friends for third period then they went home 2nd break! I was a loner in 4th period as there were only like 6 people in class so I just got talking to this girl called Sam as none of her girlfriends were there, shes nice, we had the randomest of conversations though, female bodybuilders, autistic artists, nail biting the lot. For lunch I went to my friends house, otherwise I would of been on my own all lunch break, and last lesson Ceris sat by me which was nice so I wasnt alone, even the whole of the girls who I used to hang around with were not in NOBODY and thats like loads of people.

I also had my ultrasound today, my god. First of all I made sure I ate stuff that made me feel crap, I had a kinder bueno, a cookie and a baguette, I was hoping that this would help show whatever was wrong with my gut better, I managed to be in pain for a good two hours. I needed a 'full bladder' for the scan so I drank a 500ml bottle of water an hour before but that wasnt enough so I had to drink 2 more bottles of water and wait for 10minutes, I needed a pee so badly and she pressed on my stomach really hard as well. I had PMS cramps too, the day seems to be piling it on. She nurse said everything looked fine, bummer or what! I want something to be visibly wrong, I want there to be something they can fix! I should get the results in a couple of days.

I have a welsh test on my birthday! My teacher told us today, I am crap at welsh and I am behind as is most of our class but I cannot do it!

My mom threatened to move schools yesterday, our school got a bad inspector report and a bad review in the local paper. Our head is angry. I think our school has started to go downhill but I dont know whether thats just because I have been on a 'rebellious streak' well I wouldnt call myself a rebel but I'm not really a good student but I work hard or at least appear to.

I managed to finish my drawing today too, the lips arent quite right, his ear is a bit funny and its not at the right angle but I think he looks okay, I've allready fixed it though, I thought it was quite good seeing as it wasnt traced or anything I just copied it off the picture on my ipod, not amazing but okay. I might use it for my art c/w, he can be my Clark Kent. 'm doing superheroes.

I finalised a list of stuff I want for my birthday,

Tokio Hotel-Scream (CD)

Jonas Brothers-Lines, Vines and trying times (CD)

Being Nikki-Meg Cabot (Book)

The Body/Different seasons- Stephen King (Book)

Running On Empty (DVD)

Mosquito Coast (DVD)

My Own Private Idaho (DVD)

Dogfight (DVD)

The Thing Called Love (DVD)

I know it sounds like a lot but all of the stuff is under £10 and it only adds up to about £45 in total, I thought they would keep me occupied when I went to visit my Grandparents in the summer. I'm also getting my allowance for my birthday, £35 a month, it sounds like a lot but its for me to spend on everything, clothes, makeup, magazines, going out with friends.

Anyway I need to finish catching up on Gossip Girl then revise revise revise, or read a magazine ;)

16th June

Man, I wish I was a teenager in the 80's. They had the coolest clothes, hairstyles, TV shows and movies. They just dont make them like they used to.

My cold is easing up ready for my exam tomorrow morning. Cant wait. Ive been doing a bit of revision. I find revising really hard, I dont know what to revise and how, writing doesnt really work, I just end up starring at the page. It sucks in year 10, at least in year 11 we'll get to go home after our exam finishes here we have to stay in for the rest of the day.

My gosh I hate the reception women at school. I went there after lesson to ask if I could go home as I was feeling awful (I looked awful too, snot running down a red nose, red puffy eyes the lot). They told me to stay in for next lesson, I said ok cause I couldnt be bothered arguing. We ad a supply in the next lesson, no work, people kept telling me 'gosh you look awful, you should go to reception' and to make matters worse my other condition (still unknown) decided to flare up leaving me in even more pain, after lesson I go back and they give me a lecture about how I shouldnt miss so much school. Do they think I want to be ill all the time. Ughh next time ill just leave without permission.

I am so going to fail tomorrow. I should go straighten my hair.

14th June

I look like I've been doing something heavy lol, my eyes are red and puffy, I cant walk straight and my nose is sore and bleeding (I know I sound gorgeous ;))

Also I am staying away from pasta as my stomach is killing, its like someone is playing tug of war on my intestines lmao.

I have now watched nearly all of River Phoenix's movies. I just need to see the end of Silent Tongue, and The thing called love but I should the getting that for my birthday so I'll wait till then :) I probably wont like him much by then, I prefer the teenage River anyhow, he changed when he got older, Hollywood got to him, you can tell in his interviews that he hates the publicity and stuff, hes so self-conscious. I dont blame him, I mean thats what would stop me from acting, the fame. I'd hate to be famous, have paparazzi follow you everywhere, your life in the tabloids, no thanks. I'd rather be invisible. Anyway he was a chain smoker and got high when he was with Sue someone but I dont think he started heavy stuff until My Own Private Idaho, he was living like a hustler during filming to get into character anyway someone said 'I remember asking him if he'd ever tried it before and him saying yes, but I also remember not believing him'. Anyway, whatever.

I finally finished my art final piece. I had to redo it as the first one was not arranged like a picture or something, its not brilliant but I'm not a brilliant artist. I still need to finish a charcoal drawing I started and do a little more research on artists though.

Well I should go to bed if I want to make it into school tomorrow without looking like a zombie.

13th June

Well, Only two more exams to go.

I know I got at least 3 questions wrong on my biology, 4 seeing as I missed one out.

My sore throat has now progressed from no voice and a blocked nose to a cough and a running nose, lush, I know :P

Anyway, I'm just trying to relax this weekend a little revision here and there.

I'm trying to think of a couple of good DVDs to get for my birthday, cheap ones. I've asked for a few that are about 2.99 and a couple of books. That probably will keep me occupied when I'm at my grandparents this summer. I hope they've got the Internet by now too, they always want to watch old films and periodic dramas on TV though and go out everyday so it shouldnt get too boring. I always know what I'm getting for my birthday before it comes, minus a couple of things like a top or skirt, this year I m getting my allowance (I get £30 a month plus £5 mobile top up). Christmas is different though I mean I know what my big present will be but not the little ones and the ones from other people. I might also be getting a laptop at the end of the summer after my exam results, I didnt ask for one but I think my dad has got fed up of mine crashing and having problems, I think my sister might be getting a new one too. It'll be expensive though with my sister going to college so I dont mind if I dont I like my current laptop.

My sister is going on holiday with her friends next week to the canary islands i think. Should give me an taste of what life will be like next year without her, no more 'my god are you home ill again?!' lol. Plus I can control meals more, salad salad salad :) no more gross pizza delivery's or pies and mash, yuk. I want to try being a vegetarian, or vegan for a few weeks. I might try over the holidays, after my tests have finished obviously and after my results come back.

The other day, last lesson me and my friends were goofing around and one of my friends said my other friend looked like a cat, so we started discussing what animal we look like, so my Friend sad my other friend looked like a squirrel, I started saying that someone wanted to change their name to tree rats, and we started talking about pests.

Anyways I always get really annoyed when there are signs saying 'please dont feed the pigeons' and stuff and when people call them pests. They're not really the pests, we are. I mean we 'humans' went and destroyed their lovely forests to build these big polluting citys, we ruined their habitats and food sources, some people (and this really annoys me) spit out their chewing gum on the street and every now and then you see a pigeon hobbling along all scruffy with clump of gum stuck on their feet making them mangled, how many must die from eating the stuff. They've ad to adapt to eating fatty carbohydrates instead of Berries and seeds. So yea you know I will feed the pigeons if I have food on me and you can shove your signs and authority! Haha weird rant.

Oh, And I brought skin it back! Stand By Me fans be proud :)

OMD, Its past 1AM I better go to bed, this ain't good for my cold.

10th June

Havent posted in a few days, Ive been quite busy with work and stuff I have an exam on Friday and I'm a bit run down, my throat is swollen, I cant even swallow without my eyes watering lol.

I've been watching River Phoenix movies lately, I saw My Own Private Idaho, I thought River played the narcoleptic really well but I wasnt too keen on the actual storyline or the ending, It reminded me a bit of Brokeback mountain which is weird cause Heath Ledger also died of an OD. I also watched I love you to death, he was quite funny but it wasnt brilliant again with a pointless ending, And yesterday I watched A Night In The Life Of Jimmy Reardon, I thought that was quite good but again with the ending!!

I get really weird with Movies I like, Its lke you dont watch it in a while and then when you watch it after say a year you realise that it was and is your favourite movie, I was like that with Stand by Me, I also get really attached to the people that are in it, In this case its River. I get like this with bands too, I was like it with the Jonas Brothers and I was attached to Joe for a while, I was like that with Twilight and Edward (this was way before the movie), and I was like this with Tokio Hotel and Bill Kaulitz. But I'm not like crazy obsessed or anything like some other people I know, for instance my friend is like OBSESSED with Zac Efron, well shes actually got better these last few weeks but hey after 3-4 years theres gotta be only so much you can take.

Anyway so I was on youtube looking for River interviews (I'm not obsessed just interested :)) anyways I watched one of the interviews hes normally on about animal rights or some shit I can even understand and in the related videos there was 'River 911' I was curious (as I'm British I didnt know 911 was like our 999) anyways it was Joaquin's (River's Brother) phone call to the services when River was dying, how sick is that! They recorded it and turned it public, it was horrible he was only 19 at the time (Joaquin) and he is watching his brother die + hes crying down the phone 'please hurry, hes dying, hes dying' its heart breaking. And unintentionally I found a picture of River in his coffin when I was searching Stand by Me. I cant believe people would sell that information its disrespectful.

I also recently found out that one of my friends is going out with this guy who used to go out with my other friend who used to go out with my other friend! complicated I know. Well my friend Sarah is going out with this boy Liam, she originally went out with him for two days at Christmas but ended it I dont know why, anyway Liam used to go out with Hallie on and off in year 7 and 8, and at a sleepover this December she got drunk and said she still had feelings for him (to him via text) but they never did anything about it and Hallie decided she doesnt like him anymore, then my other friend Beth apparently went out with him at some point too, but that was before I knew her. I dont really know why ANY of them went out with him, hes gross and a jerk. He doesnt even talk to Sarah in school all shes got is a thumbs up, how lame! Anyway I suppose as long as shes happy but she could do sooo much better.

Omg, today Sarah. she was going on about how she didnt want to eat cause she was getting fat (this was about 2 minutes before she scoffed a wrap in 20 seconds flat, lol)! She's a moron, I knew Hallie would rub off on someone, I just never thought Sarah cared before. Apparently shes 9st (but shes really muscly) and Hallie was like 'she only thinks shes fat cause shes heavier than me' cause Hallie's 8st4lb, its ridiculous Hallie isn't fat either but shes always going on about how she is, I was like yea make it about your weight too. But its like I am shorter than Hallie AND I weight 2lb more than her so if shes fat them I must be OBESE (which thank you very much I am not!). And Hallie is shorter than Sarah by like 2inches so thats gotta mean something. Anyways theyre just doing it for attention and so people say ''aww your not fat'' but I dont see the point cause people lie, no one is going to say ''yea your fat babes, get over it'' unless they want no mates. I mean if any of my friends asked me is they were fat I'd say no even if they were. I dont really define fat though cause everyone has some fat on their body otherwise they'd be dead. But anyways this topic is boring me.

Anyways I really need to do some geography coursework that has to be in first lesson tomorrow, if its not in I'll be in huge trouble.

6th June

Nothing much happened today, I woke up pretty late, edited some stuff on my other blog and have been revising for most of the day really, I've written stuff around my room to try and help me remember my biology. I know know the difference between mitosis and meiosis, I always got confused before.

I watched Stand By Me today and for like the first time I didnt cry! Although I did tear up a bit in the behind the scenes when they were talking about River Phoenix, and at the end of the film when Chris says "not if I see you first" and then fades away. I really want to watch My Own Private Idaho.

I'll tell you a REALLY sad film to watch, The Departed its really good though but I was crying so much at the end, like proper snotty sobbing lmao. I get like that in films I just disappear into the story, I dont normally like sad films though, my sister once tricked me into watching atonement, I hated it, I wouldnt speak to her fr the rest of the day.

Still feeling pretty crap today but whats new?

Well, I'm going to bed before I turn into a zombie :)

5th June 2009

Well,, I only lasted a lesson today, IT and we had a supply at least I finished my coursework for this year. We had a supply in maths which was the next lesson (I know this because Hallie texted me saying WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU WE HAVE A SUPPLY!). I was really bummed to disappoint her again as shes got no one else to talk to in maths.

I was off school yesterday too which was annoying cause I was meant to go to a revision thing for physics at lunch which I needed. It sucks, I had good lessons today too, in fact if you just replaced maths with art it would have been perfect!

I feel so shitty, When I'm sad I comfort eat, which probably isn't the best thing if you have problems with your digestive system. I was so humiliated and frustrated going to reception AGAIN, I swear I go there AT LEAST once a week, and I was feeling so shitty and embarrassed I started tearing up, and then everyone was like 'aww, are you ok?' and your trying to convince them your are and then a guy teacher just walks by and without even stopping walking throws some paper towels into my lap as if to say 'i hate criers', I'm just like 'thanks' and that set me off, I HATE crying. I'm one of those macho girls if you get me, hates showing emotion, like to be constantly happy even if its just a mask. I swear most of the time my act fools people. Before I got this illness I wanted to be an actress, I could have been a good one too, but my confidence has been shattered, I am terrified to even be in an assembly hall with people for goodness sakes!

Honestly when I was in primary school I was so bright, bubbly and confident, I was the cleverest girl in my class (not year though), I was the lead female role for the year 6 play, won the girl's academic achievement award in my end of primary school assembly (I didnt get the overall cause I was VERY fat back then), and had a lot of friends (and an on and off boyfriend not that we acted any different around each other than if we were just mates, omgosh I just saw a picture of him on facebook, he looks the same, just less chubby). Anyway they say high school is the best time of a persons life, theyre wrong primary school is.

So anyways I was just lazing around all day (I know I should have been revising), feeling crappy. I was reading heat magazine (I'm a movie and magazine fanatic) eating junk food while looking at pictures of skiny celebs on the beach really defeats the whole comforting thing, I mean they say hayden patineire is curvy!! WTH SHE HAS A WASHBOARD STOMACH PEOPLE, and she doesnt have hips or boobs, shes not curvy shes straight up straight down, I mean I wouldnt call myself curvy, my figures similar to her except without the washboard stomach and tan, and I'm a bit bigger, maybe, I can never tell if I'm fat or not, I'm 119 and 5ft 2ins, 32-34B, if that helps. Anyways people look different in pictures to real life right?so you'll never really know what you look like, unless maybe TV, but even that adds 10lb.

Anyways I'm blabbering on and on, my chicken salads getting cold... well the chicken part.

My mum came in earlier and was doing the whole are you ok? routine and is it just your stomach problems? noone being nasty?,, I'm just like no mother, I'm fine. Then she leans in and mouths 'boy trouble' I'm just like, no need to make it s awkward, and like anybody will want to be with me, especially if I get a flare up and am in the bathroom for most of the date. She says guys wont be put off cause I get nauseating cramps and upset stomachs all the time, I'm just like yea right. They'll be grossed out I mean it would gross any person out right?

So I wont date. I dont really have to worry though, no guys have shown any interest in me, except for Bill (kinda) *sad sigh* I miss him.

And apparently according to my mum I have a 'guard up' 'like my dad' ughh I HATE being compared to my dad. I resent him for my problems, cannot stand him, we have a complicated relationship, and dont get along.

I finished watching full house, I have now seen every episode (how sad is that).

Well I'm off, goo thing nobody reads my blog, that way nobody can know how pathetic I am (see why I choose to hide my name!) I'm considering putting a picture up, but I somehow need to hide my identitiy cause I would actually DIE if anyone I knew read this and figured out it was me.

If anyone can bother to read my blogs, please give me feedback :)

3rd June 09

Well I feel like utter shit right now. I need to take my mind off it.

Its been very Sunny the last couple of days, I DID wear my skirt, well skirts, I wore a different one today, a thinner one but got a few compliment so I guess its a keeper. I had a MAJOR tan dysfunction thingy, my legs were like totally orange lol well they were on me cause I'm like totally pale, and there was like all orange dots you know from the pores you get after shaving your legs.

Maths yesterday was funny, there were these tiny red spiders in our classroom, I found one on my maths book and freaked out to my best friend Hallie, she picked up my book and slammed it on the table, 5 minutes later she found one on her hand and 5 more minutes later I found one on my leg (and again freaked out, massive phobia of spiders), I was paranoid all lesson, it was quite funny, anyways me and Hallie were trying to find out where they were coming from, we spotted one like every 10 minutes.

Gossip girl in a bit, I think the teacher/Dan storyline is wicked the whole Serena/Dan thing was getting boring, but i wanna meet their brother. I also like the Chuck storyline atm.

Listened to the new Jobro song paranoid? its OK i think.

like Tokio Hotel? www.Tokiohotelrocks.com great site for the latest gossip, I'm LoveTH, though I tend to change my name now and again, I need something more inventive.

School today was pretty boring, not as sunny but that was a good thing. I like wearing a skirt but the only problem is my legs, I dont really like them that much, you know I can never tell if I'm fat or not you know? I need to see myself through somebody else's eyes cameras and mirrors never give you the proper picture.

I have my biology GCSE next week, and 2 more exams the week after. AND I have my ultra sound, I'm not pregnant, I think theyre scanning my stomach and intestines, cause theyre pretty fucked up, hence why I'm always ill. I have IBS as diagnosed by a doctor, but IBS isnt really a disease its just a name for a bunch of symptoms. I need to find out WHAT causes it and how to prevent it, or even if I can prevent i, I would eat lettuce for he rest of my life if that stopped it. Its really disabling people dont really realise how bad this illness can be.

Anyway, I really hope I'm not ill tomorrow I have a science revision thing at lunch that I need to be at, cause I suck at physics.

Anyways I'm going to get a drink before watching gossip girl then getting an early night.

I'll leave you a nice picture of Joe Jonas :)

Bye!

1st June 2009

Back to School.

My sister is so strange. We were just discussing spots (long story) and I pointed out the 2 on my chin and she says "you know, spots kinda suit you", I asked wtf? she says "I dont know, I think you just look at them and theyre ugly so when you see the rest of your face it looks prettier" apparently it was a compliment, I have no idea how.

Anyway, It was the first day back today after half term. I wasnt actually too bad, only a little pain here and there. I didnt speak to Hannah much I was a bit too focused on schoolwork (I'm behind due to the amount of school Ive missed). She told me about New York though, and gave me a Disney shop I (mickey mouse shape) new york pen. I find it really hard to concentrate in school my attention span is like 10 minutes tops, for instance in chemistry we were watching a video about volcanoes and somehow I started thinking about the movie Ghost, random. I also thought the video said Adam instead of atom so said a bit too loudly "Who's Adam?!". Man, I'm embarrassing.

At lunch on the field I did the hoedown throwdown, how cool am I?! not. I was trying to teach my friend it but she ended up laughing on the floor.

I'll tell you a hilarious website if you want to check it out fmylife.com I find it cheers me up if I'm feeling down.

God it was hot today, I might wear a skirt tomorrow only I can find any shorts to wear underneath! maybe I could wear my pyjama shorts, theyre red, but they might be OK. I'll see in the morning, I'm weird about clothes and stuff cause I have OCD, this morning I wore my cardigan even though it was boiling cause I thought I'd be ill if I didnt, I was so dehydrated my the time I got to school, I didnt have a drink, the vending machine didnt work AND I had games first period. I love my life (that was sarcasm btw, I use it a lot).

Anyways its getting late and my neck is killing me.

Good Night :)