24th Oct

OK so today I was in a brilliant mood, I was having an awesome hair day without even doing anything to my hair! I'd gone shopping in my city's new mall (getting lost multiple times XD) I'd gotten some new coloured skinnys, and some makeup that I wanted and I even got a Tokio Hotel 2010 16 month calendar that starts September this year MEANING that I could finally throw away my Jonas Brother calendar AND the calendar also came with stickers so I managed to pimp up my school planner,, but then I go look in the mirror and what to I find MAJOR BREAKOUT!! major buzz kill. And ok to some people it may not seem so major but for me it is,, and also I feel obese I've managed to gain another pound which means in about 3 months I've put on 5 or 6 pounds, and yeah I may have grown a little and yeah my boobs are a little bigger but I think due the the amount of exercise I do (next to nothing) and the fact that I'm eating more,, bleh :)) And yet I'm still eating a biscuit... way to go!

Lol, I posted my fanfic!! and made a banner (which I've posted above) my second chapter just got validated and I've started on the 3rd so yay!!

Anyways I'm missing XFactor so SHABAM! (that was me leaving ;))

23 Oct

OK, so I know I havent posted in a while but I have been rather busy, this week I had my work experience. I went to work in a nursery. All my friends though this was hilarious seeing as I hate children, but actually after this week I think theyre rather passable and maybe even adorable ;)

So yeah, I also got Humanoid, its good but I do miss Bill's old voice,, it seems a bit more strained now I dont know whether its just the new style of music or because if his vocal surgery or something or other that he had. I also bought their Zimmer 483 DVD which is actually pretty awesome, although an English version of their concert wouldn't go amiss either, but now I really miss their old looks, theyre just not the same anymore :/

Oh and I finally started writing my own fanfic, I'm not sure whats gonna happen yet but its gonna be some sort of boarding schooly thing. Its a Cinema Bizarre one but I may include the twins as I love Kiro/Bill stories :)

So yeahh I'm gonna start making a banner for it now.

13th Oct

Ok so my dad gave me this book 'how to master anxiety' it was meant primarily for him, he has one on depression too. See where I get this from?? See why I resent him so much?

HE GAVE ME THIS!!! HE DIDNT SORT OUT HIS OWN FUCKING DISORDER BUT INSTEAD GAVE ME EVERYTHING!! ANXIOUS/DEPRESSED PARENTS LEAD TO ANXIOUS/DEPRESSED KIDS!!

ughh.. so yeah. I think just about everyone forgot about my spaz on saturday since the pictures of another girl at the party stripping surfaced on facebook haha. But my friend DOES have a video of me dancing and miming to Michael Jackson that shes threatening to post XD

I miss the old Tokio Hotel, theyre just not the same anymore *sighs* theyre so serious. What happened to teaching people dirty words and sausage faced Bill??

Well,, I'll take a read of these books over the next few weeks... maybe I'll find something to post on my other blog?

11th Oct

Ok so I JUST about remember the other night. I remember dancing and having a laugh, but I also remember crying about how ugly I am and having a panic attack under a table outside LOL. I think its safe to say I wont be drinking for a while, I now have this horrible strain in my neck... I have no idea how I got it, I don't really remember much else :P

I have spent most of the morning cringing and am not looking forward to facing everyone, I'll manage to laugh it off. But what do you expect? I have drank properly since almost a year ago!

Ok so I'm gonna finish reading this fanfic and head off to bed. I've spent most of the day doing coursework and trying to recover lmao.

8th Oct

OK so I am really really tired,, I might just about fall asleep on my laptop.

My back and shoulders are killing me, you have no idea how heavy my school bag is, and I had to carry it around town and walk all the way down to the university after school. Plus apparently stress causes shoulder pain, and boy am I stressed!!

Yeah, so I am not really looking forward to uni, I visited my sister today (I dunno if I mentioned, but she moved out a few weeks ago) she has a TINY flat, no seating area, and her bathroom is a wetroom (meaning the shower is just in the middle with no door or curtain so the whole bathroom gets wet, yuck) and she has no TV or internet, we just watched Final Destination 3... well the first half hour before I left. And the highlight? a drunk college dude saying we looked like prostitutes (cause we were waiting on a corner to get a lift home by one of my parents, though my shirt was a bit short, ITS SHRANK IN THE WASH D:) ughh I think I'll stay at home thanks.

Oh and yesterday I was in school until 7:30pm! For a business project, OMG sooo stressy. I'm in a group of 4 and we had to make a product to sell and all this shit, my and my friend did most of the work (well, to be honest my friend did, but shes a bit of a control freak, I helped out best I could) the other two, particulalry one did basically fuck all. Oh and I don't like Bill anymore I've decided (not Kaulitz, the other one) I cant be bothered and I just really, dont.

Oh on the upside I got TOYZ (the Cinema Bizarre album) -dances- its good! But there was a delay in Humanoid (the Tokio Hotel album), so I wont be getting that for another month.

So yeahh,, another joy-filled post, woot! ;)