25th Nov

Hmmm... so coursework and illness is whats up with me recently.

For some reason this morning I decided to go into school in proper uniform (including the jumper!) which I never do,, and I decided to leave off my usual eyeliner and dark eye makeup. I have no idea why I did, maybe I was just tired of people commenting on my makeup? well THAT didn't work,, all I got was "Ohmygawd,, I cant get over how different you look!!" I cant win. Anywayyyy back to the point, today we had a meeting with our deputy in school about our grades and attendance (coughcough),, and if I HAD been in my usual attire I'm sure he would have had ago at me as hes really strict.

Anyways,, about my grades,, in some of my subjects I'm on an A,,, AND I'M STILL UNDERACHIEVING??? I MEAN WTF!!!! AN A IS GOOD!!!!!!!!! I AIN'T NO GENIUS HERE!

so anywayssss,, he started talking about my attendance... now that was awkward,, I had to explain about my illness and shit AND THE DOOR WAS WIDE FUCKING OPEN IN THE SIXTH FORM!!!!! THE SIXTH FORM!!! (where may I add BILL could have been),, even though I dont like him anymore (but I saw him swimming the other week,, his body is FINEEE!!) *goes off in dreamworld* uhhh where was I?? Oh yeahh and then I made the teacher feel all guilty... I hate people pitying me D:

So yeahh,, I am back to my amazing photo editing shit xD

I made new fanfic covers for my story,, They're posted above,, I was quite proud of myself ;D

CHRISTMAS IN A MONTH!!! I'm allready listening to my xmas tunesss. My faves have to be Last Christmas-Wham and Christmas time (Don't let the bells end)-The Darkness ^.^

Bye for now :)

17th Nov

Oh my, I haven't posted in forever (feel BAD Tokiogirl!!)

Weeeeelll... I have my mocks coming up before xmas a a fuckload of coursework deadlines. THATS MY EXCUSE!! xDD

plus,, theres not really a lot I have to discuss D:

I SAW BARNEYYY,, the purple pedophile you know the one kids ;)

well well well... yeahh thats it, sorry for such a crappy update!! D8

Oh yeahh,, I was really happy cause Tokio Hotel totally PWNED the JonASS brothers at the EMAs, they beat them for an award (why were the AMERICAN band nominated for the EMAs anyways?) and yeahh their performance rocked...

I'll try to find something interesting in my life that I feel good enough discussing.

I'll just leave you with some lovely pictures of The Sunset Triplets and Tokio Hotel to make up for it.

Sorry, byee :)

24th Oct

OK so today I was in a brilliant mood, I was having an awesome hair day without even doing anything to my hair! I'd gone shopping in my city's new mall (getting lost multiple times XD) I'd gotten some new coloured skinnys, and some makeup that I wanted and I even got a Tokio Hotel 2010 16 month calendar that starts September this year MEANING that I could finally throw away my Jonas Brother calendar AND the calendar also came with stickers so I managed to pimp up my school planner,, but then I go look in the mirror and what to I find MAJOR BREAKOUT!! major buzz kill. And ok to some people it may not seem so major but for me it is,, and also I feel obese I've managed to gain another pound which means in about 3 months I've put on 5 or 6 pounds, and yeah I may have grown a little and yeah my boobs are a little bigger but I think due the the amount of exercise I do (next to nothing) and the fact that I'm eating more,, bleh :)) And yet I'm still eating a biscuit... way to go!

Lol, I posted my fanfic!! and made a banner (which I've posted above) my second chapter just got validated and I've started on the 3rd so yay!!

Anyways I'm missing XFactor so SHABAM! (that was me leaving ;))

23 Oct

OK, so I know I havent posted in a while but I have been rather busy, this week I had my work experience. I went to work in a nursery. All my friends though this was hilarious seeing as I hate children, but actually after this week I think theyre rather passable and maybe even adorable ;)

So yeah, I also got Humanoid, its good but I do miss Bill's old voice,, it seems a bit more strained now I dont know whether its just the new style of music or because if his vocal surgery or something or other that he had. I also bought their Zimmer 483 DVD which is actually pretty awesome, although an English version of their concert wouldn't go amiss either, but now I really miss their old looks, theyre just not the same anymore :/

Oh and I finally started writing my own fanfic, I'm not sure whats gonna happen yet but its gonna be some sort of boarding schooly thing. Its a Cinema Bizarre one but I may include the twins as I love Kiro/Bill stories :)

So yeahh I'm gonna start making a banner for it now.

13th Oct

Ok so my dad gave me this book 'how to master anxiety' it was meant primarily for him, he has one on depression too. See where I get this from?? See why I resent him so much?

HE GAVE ME THIS!!! HE DIDNT SORT OUT HIS OWN FUCKING DISORDER BUT INSTEAD GAVE ME EVERYTHING!! ANXIOUS/DEPRESSED PARENTS LEAD TO ANXIOUS/DEPRESSED KIDS!!

ughh.. so yeah. I think just about everyone forgot about my spaz on saturday since the pictures of another girl at the party stripping surfaced on facebook haha. But my friend DOES have a video of me dancing and miming to Michael Jackson that shes threatening to post XD

I miss the old Tokio Hotel, theyre just not the same anymore *sighs* theyre so serious. What happened to teaching people dirty words and sausage faced Bill??

Well,, I'll take a read of these books over the next few weeks... maybe I'll find something to post on my other blog?

11th Oct

Ok so I JUST about remember the other night. I remember dancing and having a laugh, but I also remember crying about how ugly I am and having a panic attack under a table outside LOL. I think its safe to say I wont be drinking for a while, I now have this horrible strain in my neck... I have no idea how I got it, I don't really remember much else :P

I have spent most of the morning cringing and am not looking forward to facing everyone, I'll manage to laugh it off. But what do you expect? I have drank properly since almost a year ago!

Ok so I'm gonna finish reading this fanfic and head off to bed. I've spent most of the day doing coursework and trying to recover lmao.

8th Oct

OK so I am really really tired,, I might just about fall asleep on my laptop.

My back and shoulders are killing me, you have no idea how heavy my school bag is, and I had to carry it around town and walk all the way down to the university after school. Plus apparently stress causes shoulder pain, and boy am I stressed!!

Yeah, so I am not really looking forward to uni, I visited my sister today (I dunno if I mentioned, but she moved out a few weeks ago) she has a TINY flat, no seating area, and her bathroom is a wetroom (meaning the shower is just in the middle with no door or curtain so the whole bathroom gets wet, yuck) and she has no TV or internet, we just watched Final Destination 3... well the first half hour before I left. And the highlight? a drunk college dude saying we looked like prostitutes (cause we were waiting on a corner to get a lift home by one of my parents, though my shirt was a bit short, ITS SHRANK IN THE WASH D:) ughh I think I'll stay at home thanks.

Oh and yesterday I was in school until 7:30pm! For a business project, OMG sooo stressy. I'm in a group of 4 and we had to make a product to sell and all this shit, my and my friend did most of the work (well, to be honest my friend did, but shes a bit of a control freak, I helped out best I could) the other two, particulalry one did basically fuck all. Oh and I don't like Bill anymore I've decided (not Kaulitz, the other one) I cant be bothered and I just really, dont.

Oh on the upside I got TOYZ (the Cinema Bizarre album) -dances- its good! But there was a delay in Humanoid (the Tokio Hotel album), so I wont be getting that for another month.

So yeahh,, another joy-filled post, woot! ;)

30th Sept

Oh my, Its been a while.

Well a lot has been happening so I've been... well not bothering to waste my limited time posting.

Shit, I haven't done my geography.

Well I have dyed my hair,, It is now a purple/red/darkbrown colour thing... I got a lot of compliments so I'm guessing its good. Only one person said they preferred my old hair but we dont care about him ;)

Uhmm,, I went to the hospital yesterday, got x-rayed and shit. Saw my insides... it was swell ;) I had to wear one of those gown things... they are NOT easy to put on and are NOT comfy and I was just laying there for an age. Awkward XD

Well my sister has moved out, hopefully she'll give me a tour on friday (hopefully there'll be fit uni guys ;)), I have a half day in school. It sucks though cause I kinda miss her a bit,, and I need a lift to a party next week as my parents are away D: I dont know how I'm going to get there!!

Anyways yeah also coursework and stuff and oh Saturday skittle madness with my friend = hilarity. Fun times... so yeahh thats about it I cba telling you EVERYTHING I'll be here forever and people keep talking to me now.

Ughh my friend says I should get the bus, at midnight by myself? I DONT THINK SO!!!

Oh my friends are so epic! XD

Warning Moaning And Whining Alert

*sighs* I am so sick right now :/

I have homework and coursework but I am too ill to do it... I need sleep. I'm not even going to have a proper weekend, I'm going around someones house to do business and I have soo much work...Hold me I'm drowning.

People are pissing me off so much, but I hate/refuse to argue or bitch to other people so I'm just gonna write it on here. My best friend is constantly slagging of my friends, its really unfair I'm always nice about her friends, she doesn't even know my friends yet she thinks its OK to say horrible stuff about them to me, I really don't like it. Of course I just kept quiet, I don't want to fall out with her, too much drama and I don't need anymore. She can annoy the hell out of me sometimes.

The others aren't much better, one person I think I called Haylie before, well her and Chloe are like BFFs right? Which is great, I don't mind but what I do mind is that when I'm in the middle of a conversation with Chloe and Haylie comes up to us Chloe will completely blank me and talk to Haylie, and then if I try and finish my conversation Haylie screams at me for interrupting, I have given up talking to them too much hassle. And god they are violent! Especially Haylie, I mean Choe will poke me, find I'll just poke back jokily but Haylie she will actually HIT me, I'm like fucking hell abusive much? I hate people touching me in any way, and they know that! Just walk away, walk away. At least I have Sarah shes my saviour, kind with a hint of wackiness ;)

Don't even get me started on the rest of the shit, especially guys. Shoot me please?

Sleep. Need. Sleep. *walks like zombie* :)

18th Sept

Thank God Its Friday!!!!!

I am exhausted. Good news... my friend finally said yes to going out with a guy she likes!! I'm so happy for her! She was a bit blah after (due to her obsession with Zac Efron she wanted to stay single) but I went all relationship guru on her ass and made her see the light ;)

I have soo much coursework and shit to do this weekend. That is if I actually manage to wake up tomorrow ;D