31st Aug

I feel so forgotten! My family all went out for lunch (I stayed at home to do coursework) and I never got the memo that they were doing their own thing for tea, AND I didn't eat any lunch as we dint have anything. So its now past 10pm and I'm eating porridge... its actually really good though so they're forgiven thanks to my awesome cooking skills ;)

Oh I had another awesome outfit based around my pants :) They were short type pants again with grey,black,white,pink and silver jigsaw pieces on and 'wanna play?' written on the band (awesome I know) yeah so I wore it with a white vest top and grey cardigan,,, It looks good ;)

Yeahh, not much else to say. THE STAR!!!!

30th Aug

I think I had the best outfit on today, I had no trousers on but I still looked awesome ;)

Lmao, I bought these new pants yesterday they are white with red apples on them and the have a red band with 'pick me' on it, I was wearing it with a white vest top and my giant red cardigan, I also had my nails painted red from yesterday and was wearing red, black and silver jewellery I have never felt so fashionable in my underpants, needless to say I spent alot of time dancing to funky music :D

I am so wearing the outfit out, though I MIGHT wear some trousers,,, ohh maybe my boyfriend jeans?? or my pale blue skinnys... or black ones... choices choices but yeah.

I finished To Kill A Mockingbird FINALLY nothing happens until the last few chapters anyway, its pointless I do not know how it became a classic. Sucketh.

I now am aiming to show my retarded side a lot more, after reading MLIA (www.mylifeisaverage.com) and realising how cool they are, I never knew that many people were Harry Potter freaks lol, I wanna read the books again.

School starts in less than a week D:

I'm SUPPOSED to be going on a 'family fun day' tomorrow, kill me now.

Btw KIRO LOOKS LIKE THE GOBLIN KING IN THAT PICTURE!!! (far left for those of you uncool enough not to know who Kiro is)

Yeah thats it. Woop Woop!

27th Aug

Just came back from visiting the family for a few days, not fun.

I think everyone's family is slightly dysfunctional but... OMJ mine is beyond.

AND I just got my exam results!! I met up with my friend like... half an hour ago. I did OK for someone who has only been in 2 third of the year but it was pretty shit. 3B's an A and a C, I think I'll be resitting them next year. Ahh well at least I CAN resit it without retaking the whole of the year. My sister didn't have much luck either, she didn't get into her chosen uni she was one mark off, shes gonna go to the local one i think which is still pretty good...

School starts in a week...noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! I am NOT looking forward to the early mornings and well school itself, too much work :P

Well I have stuff to catch up on so... bye!

Hehe

I thought they were funny :D

20th Aug

I think I was just having a bad day yesterday... A normal person can have a bad day right?

I was just tired and had an argument and *coughperiodcough* so you know :)

I'm fine today, just as well I cancelled on my friend I would have missed it anyway lol.

Toyz is not in HMV and will not be in HMV which is the only big music store in my city and I checked the smaller ones too nothing I know its out tomorrow but they didn't have it on coming soon/pre-order or the old album either. I doubt they'll have Humanoid either. Damn, I'll have to get it on itunes which sucks cause I wanted the CD, I like Cd's you can touch them and arrange them (Yea I'm weird like that ;))

Well... oh apparently CherryTreeRadio is airing the full single Automatic soon, I'm waiting on it :D

19th Aug

Yikes, just about over that.

Not very good. I dont think I should be giving advice about depression when I cant really control mine, I'm guessing its back after that little episode. I feel so lethargic. I suppose I already knew it would come back, going back to school is the worst. Shit. I dont want to think about it. I have to go away next week, I hate going away I want to stay home, in my room forever but I force myself to go out like today even though I felt horrible.

I forgot I was supposed to be going out with my friend tomorrow. I thought it was friday. I think I'm going to have to cancel/reschedule. I feel so tired. At least I didnt hurt myself this time, not that I always do or anything but I have a couple of times, I've never told anyone just as well no one reads this blog. I'm tired and feel awful.

I wish I could makeup my life, like a story. Fantasy is so much better than reality.

19th Aug

I'm fucked.

I think its back. The depression that is. I felt it creeping up but my god I can't. I can't think I just am nothing. I feel nothing. Fuck it.

19th Aug

Just sitting here listening to some Wham! ;) No seriously I am. 'I don't want no freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedommmmmm' (8)

Anyway I'm in a weird mood despite having a pretty umm nothing day, wonderfully sad? Its a sad day for happiness. Tokio Hotel released a preview of Automatic its great Bill gets his voice really high its beautiful. Its kind of disappointing, why cant I be German the lyrics are totally different in the other language more meaningful. I think I'll get both Humanoid albums... I also want to get Cinema Bizarre's Toyz but I cant find it on amazon or play. Germany get both bands. I wish I was older and lived in Germany and I wish I hadn't dropped German!

I seriously love music, I'm having a music trip, you know, like one week I'll be mega into movies and watch like 5 films anoter music which is more appropriate as I dont have to sit on my ass when listening to it.

Oh went to the cinema the other day saw The Timetraveller's Wife? I think thats the name anyway, but yeah its ok. Nothing amazing. Yeah, I cried lmao, suprised?

New pictures as well, Bill is so cute! I seriously am pining for someone I never met. Damn teenage hormones, or damn Bill's hotness? well damn something!

I need to stop going to bed hungry, makes it harder to sleep...

Eeeeeps random mood.Bill. Picture. Soo... good:(

16th Aug

Well I haven't posted in a while, maybe I got a life ;)

My Internet AND laptop are being totally spaztic on me as usual so I'll try and keep t short but knowing me its not gonna happen, see I'm rambling already!

Well, Not only have Tokio Hotel been in the UK without my knowledge (I'm not sure there's much I could do if I had known except drive 4 hours to London airport, if someone would take time off work to meet them tired and pissed off for a brief few seconds and then driving about 6 hours (rush hour) home... hmmm could have happened?) maybe it was just as well. Theres been a few pictures and whatnot released including some of Bill in the studio dubbing the Arthur und die Minimoys sequel and someone spotted that he had his nipple pierced, must have hurt like hell, they don't really do it for me.

But yeah I also have a new fave band, they don't beat Tokio Hotel but they're second and they're also German... Seriously, why cant I live in Germany? They're called Cinema Bizarre, slightly more upbeat music and they're crazy, its hard to pick a favourite as they're all so unique (not that TH aren't but Bill is just so beautiful the others cant compete, well Tom could as they're practically identical lookwise but its about more than looks) anyway I think I have to favour Kiro hes just so cute! Hes like a PIKACHU I just wanna put him in my pocket! Yu has an amazing torso (not that Kiro doesn't) and is more ummm hot (not that Kiro isn't) Strify is just Stify (honestly I cant explain, hes just cool), Shin is sweet and I haven't seen much of Romeo... they're kinda mysterious too noone seems to know their real names (its assumed Romeo is Romeo and apparelty Yu is Hannes. But the other 2 are a total mystery) its kinda annoying but you know whatever floats their boat.

So I'll put up a picture I made for my YouTube page, this is the version with my face covered up cause well it aint a pretty sight ;) it has a mix of Tokio Hotel and (well me) Cinema Bizarre with Bill and Kiro singled out of each band. Oh and I've got lyrics from both band's songs dotted around the place, I thought it was pretty good seeing as the program I used it on completely wrecks my computer when I'm using it! Like I always say please dont use it, it has me in it so even though my face is covered up I still dont want it everywhere, if you want a picture spend 5 hours making one yourself! :P Oh and click on it to get better quality :)

Well so much for a short post... stop, stop typing now!!

10th Aug

I am really sad, apparently Tokio Hotel aren't releasing their album in the UK!!! Its bad enough they dont do a concert in Wales and only one elsewhere in their lives but seriously no album, what have I done wrong?

I forgot to mention Total Wipeout the other day HILARIOUS Tv show, people doing a huge obstacle course into mud and stuff,, its hilarious you HAVE to watch it :)

I was told about this site in the cherrytree chatroom, Omegle.com you talk to strangers anonymously of course, which is good because then you can have fun, tough you do get perv's sometimes but you just disconnect the chat and all is good. Same if they're boring or don't like Tokio Hotel (and I cant persuade them too) they get the cut :P

I watched Holes AND Black Beauty today, i dont know where I find the time! but yea I fast forwarded some of BB as it was just horses running (who knew ;)) but Holes the adaption (we have the video, I never knew) normally films skip loads of stuff out and have totally different character but this didn't the only difference is the end of the book and that Stanley isnt fat.

Lol I realise I sound sad on here, but I do other stuff too besides watch films, read and talk to strangers!!

I need to work out a plan to get my parents to buy some software I want for video making, Vegas Studio Something or other.