23 Oct

OK, so I know I havent posted in a while but I have been rather busy, this week I had my work experience. I went to work in a nursery. All my friends though this was hilarious seeing as I hate children, but actually after this week I think theyre rather passable and maybe even adorable ;)

So yeah, I also got Humanoid, its good but I do miss Bill's old voice,, it seems a bit more strained now I dont know whether its just the new style of music or because if his vocal surgery or something or other that he had. I also bought their Zimmer 483 DVD which is actually pretty awesome, although an English version of their concert wouldn't go amiss either, but now I really miss their old looks, theyre just not the same anymore :/

Oh and I finally started writing my own fanfic, I'm not sure whats gonna happen yet but its gonna be some sort of boarding schooly thing. Its a Cinema Bizarre one but I may include the twins as I love Kiro/Bill stories :)

So yeahh I'm gonna start making a banner for it now.

13th Oct

Ok so my dad gave me this book 'how to master anxiety' it was meant primarily for him, he has one on depression too. See where I get this from?? See why I resent him so much?

HE GAVE ME THIS!!! HE DIDNT SORT OUT HIS OWN FUCKING DISORDER BUT INSTEAD GAVE ME EVERYTHING!! ANXIOUS/DEPRESSED PARENTS LEAD TO ANXIOUS/DEPRESSED KIDS!!

ughh.. so yeah. I think just about everyone forgot about my spaz on saturday since the pictures of another girl at the party stripping surfaced on facebook haha. But my friend DOES have a video of me dancing and miming to Michael Jackson that shes threatening to post XD

I miss the old Tokio Hotel, theyre just not the same anymore *sighs* theyre so serious. What happened to teaching people dirty words and sausage faced Bill??

Well,, I'll take a read of these books over the next few weeks... maybe I'll find something to post on my other blog?

11th Oct

Ok so I JUST about remember the other night. I remember dancing and having a laugh, but I also remember crying about how ugly I am and having a panic attack under a table outside LOL. I think its safe to say I wont be drinking for a while, I now have this horrible strain in my neck... I have no idea how I got it, I don't really remember much else :P

I have spent most of the morning cringing and am not looking forward to facing everyone, I'll manage to laugh it off. But what do you expect? I have drank properly since almost a year ago!

Ok so I'm gonna finish reading this fanfic and head off to bed. I've spent most of the day doing coursework and trying to recover lmao.

8th Oct

OK so I am really really tired,, I might just about fall asleep on my laptop.

My back and shoulders are killing me, you have no idea how heavy my school bag is, and I had to carry it around town and walk all the way down to the university after school. Plus apparently stress causes shoulder pain, and boy am I stressed!!

Yeah, so I am not really looking forward to uni, I visited my sister today (I dunno if I mentioned, but she moved out a few weeks ago) she has a TINY flat, no seating area, and her bathroom is a wetroom (meaning the shower is just in the middle with no door or curtain so the whole bathroom gets wet, yuck) and she has no TV or internet, we just watched Final Destination 3... well the first half hour before I left. And the highlight? a drunk college dude saying we looked like prostitutes (cause we were waiting on a corner to get a lift home by one of my parents, though my shirt was a bit short, ITS SHRANK IN THE WASH D:) ughh I think I'll stay at home thanks.

Oh and yesterday I was in school until 7:30pm! For a business project, OMG sooo stressy. I'm in a group of 4 and we had to make a product to sell and all this shit, my and my friend did most of the work (well, to be honest my friend did, but shes a bit of a control freak, I helped out best I could) the other two, particulalry one did basically fuck all. Oh and I don't like Bill anymore I've decided (not Kaulitz, the other one) I cant be bothered and I just really, dont.

Oh on the upside I got TOYZ (the Cinema Bizarre album) -dances- its good! But there was a delay in Humanoid (the Tokio Hotel album), so I wont be getting that for another month.

So yeahh,, another joy-filled post, woot! ;)

30th Sept

Oh my, Its been a while.

Well a lot has been happening so I've been... well not bothering to waste my limited time posting.

Shit, I haven't done my geography.

Well I have dyed my hair,, It is now a purple/red/darkbrown colour thing... I got a lot of compliments so I'm guessing its good. Only one person said they preferred my old hair but we dont care about him ;)

Uhmm,, I went to the hospital yesterday, got x-rayed and shit. Saw my insides... it was swell ;) I had to wear one of those gown things... they are NOT easy to put on and are NOT comfy and I was just laying there for an age. Awkward XD

Well my sister has moved out, hopefully she'll give me a tour on friday (hopefully there'll be fit uni guys ;)), I have a half day in school. It sucks though cause I kinda miss her a bit,, and I need a lift to a party next week as my parents are away D: I dont know how I'm going to get there!!

Anyways yeah also coursework and stuff and oh Saturday skittle madness with my friend = hilarity. Fun times... so yeahh thats about it I cba telling you EVERYTHING I'll be here forever and people keep talking to me now.

Ughh my friend says I should get the bus, at midnight by myself? I DONT THINK SO!!!

Oh my friends are so epic! XD

Warning Moaning And Whining Alert

*sighs* I am so sick right now :/

I have homework and coursework but I am too ill to do it... I need sleep. I'm not even going to have a proper weekend, I'm going around someones house to do business and I have soo much work...Hold me I'm drowning.

People are pissing me off so much, but I hate/refuse to argue or bitch to other people so I'm just gonna write it on here. My best friend is constantly slagging of my friends, its really unfair I'm always nice about her friends, she doesn't even know my friends yet she thinks its OK to say horrible stuff about them to me, I really don't like it. Of course I just kept quiet, I don't want to fall out with her, too much drama and I don't need anymore. She can annoy the hell out of me sometimes.

The others aren't much better, one person I think I called Haylie before, well her and Chloe are like BFFs right? Which is great, I don't mind but what I do mind is that when I'm in the middle of a conversation with Chloe and Haylie comes up to us Chloe will completely blank me and talk to Haylie, and then if I try and finish my conversation Haylie screams at me for interrupting, I have given up talking to them too much hassle. And god they are violent! Especially Haylie, I mean Choe will poke me, find I'll just poke back jokily but Haylie she will actually HIT me, I'm like fucking hell abusive much? I hate people touching me in any way, and they know that! Just walk away, walk away. At least I have Sarah shes my saviour, kind with a hint of wackiness ;)

Don't even get me started on the rest of the shit, especially guys. Shoot me please?

Sleep. Need. Sleep. *walks like zombie* :)

18th Sept

Thank God Its Friday!!!!!

I am exhausted. Good news... my friend finally said yes to going out with a guy she likes!! I'm so happy for her! She was a bit blah after (due to her obsession with Zac Efron she wanted to stay single) but I went all relationship guru on her ass and made her see the light ;)

I have soo much coursework and shit to do this weekend. That is if I actually manage to wake up tomorrow ;D

17th Sept

I'm so tired!!!

And I doubt I'll be having much of a lie in on the weekend as I have more and more coursework that need to me complete. Arghhh I cant even type D:

Boys are more hassle than they are worth. Seriously. I'm trying my best to ignore the one who likes me as I don't want to lead him on in ANYWAY and apparently he likes it when people are mean to him AND when they are nice so I'm hoping ignoring will work. The guy I DO like however seemed perfectly happy to egg on the girl who was flirting with him earlier when I was sitting by him. I of course pretended that I didn't care but boy, she ain't subtle. She seems nice though, damn it ;)

Oh well I have too much work to get into more drama. Work Work Work. My life is sooo hard ;)

16th Sept

So many deadlines... ouch I just hit my knee on my desk.

Coursework this exams that D:

And prom! its only the second week of school and people are already sorting out dates for prom! I think I'll just go with my girlfriends, there are no good guys in our year, that are single anyway (:

Oh my, the guy (Idk if I mentioned it before but... w.e) that I thought might have a crush on me apparently does, my friend told me that he was talking about it. Kill me now. I just had to walk home with him, I was as cold as I could be but apparently that just leads him on WTF??
I will NOT go out with him, if he asks me I'll just say I like someone else. Which is true so, yeah.

Oh I am bringing out my Harry Potter geek again (thanks MLIA) shes been locked up inside me for a good year or so now.

I need to go do some geography coursework. I'm so tired.

9th Sept

Gosh, I have so much work to do, you'd think they'd ease you in on your first week back but no, its rush rush rush!! D:

Soooo tiringgggg...zzzz